I've been thinking about my high school friend, who is a crush of mine and still is to this very day. Sometimes I can't help but just think about how it could've been if they would've been more than just a friend to me. Would we get along? Would we shower eachother with flowers everytime we saw eachother? It just kind of hurts...every now and then to think about it.
See, I put this friend through a lot of trouble, which I honestly didn't mean to put them through this much trouble but I did. I love this person very much, but I feel as if I have hurt them a lot (which I didn't mean to come off that way or something, but apparently I did.). You see, the love I have for this person is well "forbidden," because if we were to ever be in love with eachother, our families would never really forgive us (I would know because I know my mom and dad didn't approve of it and my friends mom and dad wouldn't either) But sometimes, it's just really hard to try to not remember things that may have happened in the past between us, because I just genuinely love this person, at least I think I do. In a matter of fact, I love them soo much that I said for them to stay away from me because if anyone was to ever find out then it would be the ruin of us, I just know it will. I dunno, for some reason I need some closure on this matter but I dunno how to go about doing it. What do you do if the person you love can never be your lover....I just don't know how to deal with it.
Love is complicated sometimes.
Tags: Love, forbidden, friend, ruin
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