Dearest Zubair, Salam
Why have you stopped writing to me? Are you angry with me? On your counselling and advice I stopped writing my fantasies and I think you were right in stopping me, but you also promised and quote from your mail, "secondly if u feel lonely or u want to share ur good thoughts as a younger or older brother of urs im ready to render my coperation hope." Now you have stopped responding to my mail! I am very lonely and need support and friendship or brotherly advice, a shoulder to cry on. You promised me all that and was a ray of hope for me, but now you seem to have gone back on your words. Please explain why? What is my fault this time?
Warm regards
Rabia

Salam Zubair,
Thank you for agreeing to show me light! Thank you for foregiving me and accepting me as a friend or sister. I appreciate, you can't be my teacher but for pointing and showing me where to seek guidance.
I will remain ever so greatful to you for your kindness.
Do you like to be known by the name Zubair, Rahman or Khan?
Take care and lots of regards
Rabia

My dear Rahman Sahib,
Aap to bohut khafa hogaey. I told you these are just fantasies and not my actual experiences. I am kept by my husband within the 4 walls of our home and my only contact with the out side world is through internet. To sleep with a naa mehrem is surely zina, harm and sinful. But I do not think fantasizing or writing about it is sinful.
I am not a bad woman, but seem to have left a wrong impression on you. If you think I am a whore or unfaithful to my husband amd I am on wrong, then please help me reform. Guide me and tell me how to do tooba and how to become parsa! Be my guide and my teacher and help me get back on the right path. Can I please add you as a friend ? and learn from you the difference between write and wrong. Good and evil. Please help me!