hey everyone i would like 2 show you something else about myself.

Levi Nasher the first guy i ever fall for and loved. I met him when i was about in 6th grade we were just friends then. But soon it came very serious and we were in love. But like always in fairy tale stories everything is always perfect i thought we would get married because he gave me a promise ring when it was my 16th birthday and have kids 2gather and grow old 2gather and have grandkids and great grand kids this might sound insane but i just wanted 2 spend the rest of my life with him.

But one fatal night took all my dreams away it was about 2:oo in the morning when alex and ashley came 2 the door. And i was half way asleep. They told me to get dress because we are heading to the hospital i asked them why but all they did was say get ready. when we were in the car they finally told me that levi was in a accident with 3 other people one survied and that was levi's older brother Jake but for levi he's in surgey and dont know anything yet they said they tried 2 call me 3 times but i was sleeping so i didnt hear the phone.

It was about 9:00 a.m when the doctor came out i was at the hospital for about 7 hours and was tried and scared at the same time the doctor took levis falimy and left us waiting i really dont remember how i felt but i know i was really nervoues. About at 10:00 was the time when the famliy came out they went to us and took us in the small room where they were. They told us that he had died from enteral bleeding was i heard that i ran out the hospital and into my car and drove nowhere i finally in up at me and levi's sercet spot i remember falling down on the ground and digged with my nails until i found the box of are stuff. I left up levi's class ring that i had craved in always and forever i threw it and lost in the pile of leaves i barley could see i wanted to scream but i didnt. Then i saw a car pull up and it was alex and ashley they saw me and run out of their car. Ashley came running in my arms saying to me over and over agian im so sorry iam so sorry i finally broke down crying i felt lifeless and all i could see was darkness i kept hearing the 3 words that were repeting in my mind {Always and Forever} finally ashley looked me in the eye Anne it's going to be okay everthing will be okay i promise. i started to feel a range of anger come over me, Iam sick and tried of people saying over and over it's going to be okay i said with anger comming over me because i love him and i will never say it's going to be okay because it's not going to be okay he's dead he's never going to come back he's gone he's dead i felt hot running tears comming down my face i couldnt see anything i felt ashley wrap her arms around me but i pulled away i back away slowy and run off before she could say anything all i wanted to do is run and run and run and run i never wanted to stop running all i wanted do is cool my anger and erase my pain away.

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I run to a place that looked fimular his house i run up to the door and looked in the windows but all i could see was darkness i thought to myself the nashers must not be home. So i ran to the grass and layed down i saw the beautiful stars in the sky and it reminded me of him i started to cry. Until i saw ashley's car, i was about to run away from them but instead of only ashley and alex beinning their amy [ levi's sister] and jake [ levi's brother], tiffany they all came running to me i ask them why they were here they said that ashley and alex said you were having a hard time dealing with levi's death. I looked over were amy and jake was i didnt want to act like i was hurting because i didnt want them to think that i was the only one hurting, so i lied iam fine i said but everyone knew by my face i wasnt. Amy came over to me and hugged me she whrisped in my ear just let go let your anger and sadness go i was shock that amy was suporting me instead of yelling at me that your not the only one hurt then she finally said something that woke me up i know you and levi were really close and you are going to being going though more diffcult things then me and jake will being going though and thats why we should all help one another get though this because you know levi would not want us to misserable. I was so happy and relax when amy said that i said something so everyone knew i would be okay. I loved levi very much and i still love him but just amy said we should stick togather on this they all pulled out there arms and we made a pack that we would help each other though this and no matter where, when, and why they need us we would stop what were doing and go help the person in need.

Months past and i havent had a mental break down about levi's death since that night i was supposed to met jake at his house because we are were supposed to visit levi's grave every month. I usalluy dont pick anyone up but since amy was with tiffany are ready and Jake's car was getting fix i was the only option. I arrived at his house looking at the house back in forth i started to feel tears comming down i couldnt believe i tryed to forget him i said in my thoughts i started to have flashbacks of times we spent angry, sad and excting moments togather. Tears came more and more and i started to reget the pack i made that night. Jake open the door hey sorry it took me so long. He notice that we werent moving i was just staring at the house, Arent you going to go Anne? He looked over at me he notice i was crying he wrapped his arms around me. Anne dont cry just keep it in your heart and never forget it. I looked at him werid i didnt understand why he was telling me to keep something in my heart and dont let it go what the hell was he talking about i wondered. What, keep what in my heart i finally said your love and memories you shared with my little brother. I started to cry even more almost making him cry i know we promise eachother that we would not break down again and we promised to forget levi, i took a big breathe and spilled out the truth but i cant forget him and i cant act like each and every day nothing happen because something did happen something that change my life compelety and never again will i promise to someone that i have to forget about him never again will i do that i repeted. Jake took his hands off mine and then looked strainght at the road then back at me the promise is not to forget him it is to never forget the memories he said slowly. Then why do i feel so bad. We always will feel like were doing something wrong. The rest of ride their we didnt talk we i got their he got out and saw that i wasnt going with him he ask me why i wasnt getting out of the car but i just looked at him for a moment i thought i saw levi and i did was froze i turn the key in the ingiration and drove off