I am 26 now, already have my own family but still livign with my parents. I am working in a computer company but i'm still lacking financially. My husband had resigned from his work due to my requests just to be with him. Our cute 'apuchi' (my baby's nickname) are growing somewhat smart, healthy and active.

My parent's were the most demanding persons I had experienced. After college, I went to Manila to seek for job because God knows how I wanted to help them. Unfortunately, it was already too late when I found out that I was pregnant. I still went home though I know that everybody will kill me.

Everyday, my parents keep on blaming me: the money they spent when I was in college and they started to get intimidate to all of my cousins who worked abroad. The most painful part is to compare me to them and all of them are disgrading me. Of course, I understood it because they were deliberately disappointed. I get hurt everytime they kept on telling me why they sent me to college?

My heart almost turn into pieces but I need to be strong for my apuchi. But, they are hurting me too much! My ego was gone and they keep on reminding me that I was the most dumb, stupid and hopeless person they knew. It wasn't my intention to get pregnant and having a baby was the most beautiful thing happened in my life.

My mom calling me devil. Am i that bad enough to call me that way? why do I need to be treated like this? it's all my fault, I know, but why do they can't understand that I have already my own family...why do they can't still accept the father of my child? Is that because he is just an average guy who never stepped in college? Why do I need to expereince this? My tears can't stop falling in my face and my heart..my heart is seemed stabbing by a knife...but I need to be strong for my husband and my child....I need to be strong...

I don't hate my parents because I understand them...but can I tell them to stop degrading and insulting me? No, they won't listen to me...they won't understand me...I have no right to speak them. Sometimes, I feel regret of having an uneducated parents...maybe, if they were only one, they would understand me, they won't hurt me, they will love me and they will accept me....

All of my neighbours are laughing at me because of not choosing a good man. He, who is unstable to work and never finish any course deserves someone like me. I was the top in the class in college, I got medals during gradaution day, but why I belong to just someone like him? but I don't feel regret...because he was the man,whom the girls dreamin of..I love him so much, in spite of his educational and life status. He is so kind, understanding and everything about him.

I know I could pass this kind of trials...maybe God just want to test me, where i could possibly be...thanks to him for always there for me...thanks,..at least I feel better now....